When I had my kundalini awakening at the beginning of 2017, there was also something else that was revealed to me at that time, and that was the concept of twin flames and my connection to my divine beloved. (On a side note: I’m not particularly fond of the term twin flames, because of the misconceptions that it often brings, but for lack of a better term, that is what I will call it). This is something I haven’t really been ready to share much about until now, but I feel it’s an important part of who I am, and since authenticity is important to me, I figure it’s time to “come out of the closet”, so to speak, in regards to that too.
I received a download at the time of my kundalini awakening that showed me I had taken on a mission to help in the awakening and ascension of humanity, and I intuitively realized that my twin flame was inextricably linked with this mission. I have felt for a long time that there was a deeper reason for me being on planet earth at this time, and that there was something that I was supposed to do in life. But until then, it hadn’t really been clear to me what it was. However, when my kundalini surged up my spine and woke me up in the early morning hours, I felt like I was floating in a sea of love. With it came a deep knowing of who and what I truly am: unconditional love. That is what we all are at our core. My twin flame also rode in on that wave of love, and has helped to ground it ever since. The mission is essentially to bring back the love!
The process of kundalini awakening, or the awakening and ascension back to love, as I like to think of it, is also a process of releasing past pain and trauma, since whatever is not in alignment with love, has to go. This is where the twin flame also comes into play. Many people may at first glance think that the concept of twin flames is some naive, romantic notion of everlasting love and not grounded in reality. However, those of us who have experienced this deep and intense connection to another, know that it is a lot more than that. In this type of ascension journey, the twin flame comes in as a catalyst, to help you grow and remember who you truly are (though not usually in a conscious and deliberate manner, at least not in the beginning).
At first, this process was extremely challenging, and I felt a great sense of heaviness for the first couple of years. This is because of all the pain that comes up to the surface to be released. But as the process continued, and the more that was cleared out, the more I began to connect to the love and light within me. I began to feel a lot lighter and happier. As this is an inner journey, although often triggered by outer circumstances, it brings you into a closer communion with your soul, or higher self. Something within you guides you and spurs you on, even when you want to throw in the towel, which is something I’ve been tempted to do, more than once.
The awakening of humanity that is now occurring on our planet and the chaos that we’re in is all a part of our ascension back to love and who we truly are. This is also bringing about a rise of the feminine, as there has been a great divide between the masculine and feminine on our planet for a long time. I recently watched a beautiful video that explains the history of relationships from a spiritual perspective. It resonated with me, and I have also heard similar stories in other places. Basically it talks about how originally, the woman was a natural vessel for love and spirituality, and was always the one to help her man connect to Source, through her own divine connection. But as the woman over time began to lose this connection, she began to look for it somewhere else, that is, in her man. He could of course never give her the kind of love that really always existed inside of her, in her connection to Source.
In order to attract her man, and in her eyes, love, she would use what means she had, primarily her body and her looks, in other words, her physical vessel. But she could never get true love that way, nor could her man, since the connection to the true Source of love, wasn’t present. However, this created a dysfunctional need for love and attention that can never be fulfilled by another human being. This is something I can definitely relate to in my own journey, looking for love in all the wrong places, using questionable methods, not realizing that the ultimate source of love is always within. When we begin to reconnect with love, and clear out what stands in its way, we can help others reconnect with it, and more harmonious relationships result. On an individual level you also gain a much better relationship with yourself, which is perhaps the most important thing.
One of the greatest gifts my twin flame has given me, is challenging me to look at all those areas in my life where I didn’t love myself, and bring my traumas up to the surface so that they could be healed. Of course, it’s not just our twin flame who can bring up wounds for healing. Friends, soulmates, and especially our parents, are also very much our mirror in that regard, triggering our dysfunctions and pain. Through my process I have learnt to be grateful both for the love but also the challenges that other people bring me, as they all help me learn, grow and heal, in time bringing me closer to Source and the love within.
I hope what I shared with you today can inspire you and help you reconnect to the love within you. To help you on the way, feel free to check out some of my meditations here on this page, especially the free Self-Love meditation. Or if you want to go deeper than that, and could use some help, you’re welcome to contact me to explore working with me 1:1.
Until next time, sending you lots of love & light!